~*Katina Denise*~

There's only one person in this world that I honestly can say that I can not live without and it's this beautiful, powerful woman named Katina Denise A*K*A the world's greatest mom! I love my mom with every ounce of my being. There is nothing that I wouldn't do to see this woman happy. She is my one and only. She is the air in my lungs, the beat in my heart, the blood in my veins, and the twinkle in my eye! If it wasn't for her I don't know how I could live. LITERALLY!!!! There has not once been a time that I have gone to her and not gotten the best advice in the world! She is basically the top reason I get up everyday and actually try to go on! Even though we have our times when we can't stand to be around each other, it never lasts longer than a day cause I just can't stay mad at her. It's just something about her presence that makes me feel empowered. I just can't figure out what it is! Could it be her friendly personality? Or her beautiful face? Or maybe its her beautiful spirit that could light up any dark place? Or maybe its her confidence that can make her walk in a room and everybody in her presence instantly falls in love with her? Or maybe its just that fact that she is Katina? Whatever the reason maybe, I will always and forever love her!!!

Christmas Break

Is it ever going to get here??? Christmas break that is. It seems like this final week is taking years to go by. I am so ready to be at home in my own bed, in my own room, using my own bathroom, around people I know, and eating non-cafeteria food! I am so ready for this semester to be over with that I can't even concentrate on my studies. I pray that I pass these last two exams I have on Wednesday. Its been a long week and there's still more to come. Another thing I can't wait for is Christmas. On Thanksgiving break I got to see all of my family all together. I'm just ready to do that again. I love my family with all my heart and when we are together it's like something out of this world! We have so much fun just being in each others' company. That's why I love those guys!! I also can't wait til Christmas so that I can get to open up some presents. I know I sound like a big kid but I honestly still want to get gifts on Christmas. There's noting like the surprise of receiving a gift to let you know that somebody is thinking about you. I don't want nothing in particular but anything sounds nice right around now. With me that old saying is true; it's the thought that counts!

Finals!

I think that I have never been as depressed and stressed out as much as I have been these last couple of days. I have had 2 papers, 2 test, 2 exams, and 3 more to go! And these final exams have really been a burden! Almost every single one that I have taken has made me feel like the dumbest person in the world! It literally looked like those tests were written in Japanese! They just left me wondering how in the (beep) could I have A's and B's in the classes and the finals look like something I have never seen before in my life! I mean is it possible for you to learn something and don't know it? I just hope that I don't fail them too bad that they bring my grades down really low. I have always been a smart student and I would hate to go off college and start disappointing my parents. And I really can't afford to take any of these classes over again! I mean once was way more than enough! I can't go through this mess again! I'm trying to get out of here not stay longer! But all I can do is pray and study, study and pray, and then study some more, and just hope for the best. I mean, there's no way that it could possible get worst! Or is there? I guess only time will tell. Hopefully I'm not proven wrong!

~Is it eva going to get here?!?!?~

Thanksgiving break is not getting here fast enough. I'm so ready to get home and see my loving family and friends. Is it a shame that I terribly miss them and I just was at home last weekend? Tuesday, November 25, 2008 is right around the corner and it feels as though its a year away. I can already taste my grandma's sweet potato pie and double chocolate cake, my aunt Dorothy's famous sweet ham, my mom's delicious dressing, my aunt Gloria's perfect cornbread with aunt Linda's tasty greens, and everything else that is going to be on the menu. I also can't wait to see all of my beautiful family members from all around the world. I can't wait to see my older family members tearing up the dance floor. I can't wait to see all of the youngsters running around enjoying each others company. I can't wait to hear all of the stories about what my grandmother and her siblings use to do when they were my age. I can't wait to get so full that I feel like I'm about to bust. I can't wait to see my mommy! Its just all going to be a time to remember. I just can't wait for it all to happen. Hopefully I can still concentrate on my work because just because I'm going on break doesn't mean that when I come back those exams are going to be waiting on me. I'm just praying that I can handle it all and I know the Lord will bring me through it... He always does.

A Stunt Not Intended for Humans

I have always been a person who loves to do a little bit of everything. I love to skate, sing, dance, act a fool, and basically anything there is to do in the little town that I grew up in. But there is one thing that I just can't do... bungee jump. It just seems like a sport you should do only if you are ready to die! But for some strange reason my friends are just hung up on the idea of trying to convince me to go do this crazy stunt when they have failed to do the stunt themselves. I feel if God wanted us to jump off of a bridge on a single piece of rope and not hit the ground and die... he wouldn't have created gravity! I probably wouldn't be so afraid to do it if I hadn't seen a video of this man who jumped off the edge of a cliff and his face was introduced to the ground because his rope was just a little bit to long. Or if I hadn't seen a video of another man who was introduced to the same ground because his rope BROKE! I think the only way I could ever do it is if I was knocked out cold and they pushed me over the edge. And then again, if they pushed me over the edge, it might just be time for me to find some new friends! I can't honestly say that I would never do it because maybe one day I just might get the guts to actually do it. Well I guess we'll just have to wait and see what the future has in store.

~YES WE CAN!!~

OH MY GOD!!!! He won!!!! I am so glad that this HUGE change has happened in my lifetime. Barack Obama is my president! I just love how those words roll off the tongue! Say it with me now, "Barack Obama is MY president! I was just so totally overwhelmed with joy at 10:27 p.m. Tuesday, November 4, 2008! I honestly think I my heart stopped beating for a couple of seconds! My heart just couldn't believe what my ears were hearing! There is a BLACK man moving into the white house! I hope that people really give him a chance to make the changes that I KNOW he's going to do! I say this because of a lot of people think that he will get assassinated before he even has a chance to do anything. He will be in my prayers every night. I hope that through this huge change some people realize that change can sometimes be good... and this is one of those times! I remember, when I was younger, my mom use to always tell me whenever I felt sad, "Don't be sad. Your going to be the first black president one day." I brought this to her attention Tuesday night she said, "If anybody deserved to win the title before me, Obama DEFINITELY was the person." And I couldn't agree with her more. So for anyone out there that has the slightest bit of doubt, I just want to tell you, YES WE CAN!!!!

Is the world ready?

'Is the world ready for a black president?' is a question that I am so tired of hearing. My answer to this question would be 'Why wouldn't the world be ready?' When I brought this issue up to my mother she just said that people are just afraid of change. I feel like people are more afraid of the fact that a black man could possibly be the president more than the fact that they are afraid of change. Which brings me to another issue that I just can't get over. Why is it such a big deal for a black person to have power? I just don't understand why people would rather kill someone than let them possibly make the world a better place for more people. I am disgusted at the people that have already set up plans to kill Obama if he wins. It really makes me sad to think that there are people out there that would kill another human being just because of that person skin color. Just the other day, a man was put in prison because he had written a blog on Myspace(if I'm not mistaken) stating that he was going to kill 88 black people and decapitate 14 of them and make Obama his final target. Now I can only speak for myself but I personally think that the world calls the wrong race the 'ignorant race'. I have never heard of a black person ever saying that they would kill the president just because he's white. But I guess that just lets you know just how much the world has actually changed.